Young Love

Writing usually helps me with anything that I'm feeling. Although I feel this may be a personal piece, I think the best way to help myself heal a bit is to post it and relieve myself of the burden of carrying it solely. So here it is.

"Time to Let Go"

When you love someone, it’s hard to let them go.
And although I made that decision and set you free what feels like years ago,
I never realized how much of myself I was letting go too.
You were what made a big part of who I am and when I said that we could just be friends,
I took away a love that I know I will never find again.
It’s not because there aren’t million of guys out there and many that may be better for me than you,
But you were who made me smile and who lit up my heart every time I heard your voice.
Maybe that’s why knowing that you have someone else to hold at night, or someone else to kiss you back and heal your pain,
Makes me feel like I’m going insane.
Let me be straight, I lost my sanity a while ago because being with you meant that I could be anyone else and someone that I had never been before.
I did that because of you.
I became the girl that you loved, that you wanted to be with and then you became my everything.
The fighting, the arguments, its all part of being in love and knowing that those few mean words will only make you stronger.
You have made me a better person than who I was.
And although I know I have to move on because clearly you have, the love I have in my heart has blended with the blood that flows through my body, my soul.
It is no longer something that I can just take out and throw away because I don’t want you anymore, trust me I tried, but it has become the kind that has become part of who I am.
Now I know that who I am was meant to love you.
This does not go to say that love for me will never exist again, but I don’t want it to.
Loving you was one of the best parts of my life because when I had no one you were there.
You listened to my stories, took me into your heart, and heard me when no one else would.
The truth is that I don’t think I ever did let you go.
That is why I tell you everyday that even though you may have someone else to miss now and someone else to love and comfort you, I can never stop loving you and I can never stop wanting you.
You are part of me, my soul mate, my best friend, my love.
And when the time comes that you don’t need me anymore, I’ll still be there wishing and praying that for you, the world prepares itself because you deserve nothing but the best.
I love you.