It sucks

Love is a crazy feeling. I don't think I can ever let myself fall in love again just because I think its a feeling I don't want to have. Previous experiences have told me that it is such a gut wrenching and difficult thing to go through. I've pretty much experienced it all; long distance, cheating, the heartbreak, the recovery. It pretty much all sucks to me. You fall in love, you love it and then when its over, you feel like it will never get better. Before I used to watch others and want to find my special someone and now Im pretty much over it. The tears Ive shed, and the level of hate I have toward love is pretty much why I think that for me the search is over and Im kind of done wanting anything more.